Certain Attitudes May Change Pretty-damn-quick, Later This Year…

I see that anti-vaccine attitude or vaccine distrust is actually on the rise in this country. I think we’re in for around 600,000 or more NEW covid deaths this year. Because we blew our chance to head off the pandemic. I predict that  as people begin to see more and more others dying around them, in their community, they’ll change their minds about the vaccine, and about masks. Too late, they’ll suddenly GET a vaccine and wear masks, out of sheer terror.

Ignorance, sheer stupidity, a resistance to scientific fact–and then terror. The terror of realization. The horror of “oh my God what have I done, death is coming for me.” To think it must come to that before people grow up and accept wearing masks and social distancing and the vaccines. The misinformation, the antivax foolishness, is prolonging the pandemic.  We could have had herd immunity. We could have had most of the pandemic over by now.  We could have been in sight of not needing the masks.

But no. You can thank Florida, you can thank Texas, you can thank all the red states for the new coronavirus surge; and thanks to the foulest-smelling corners of the internet for the antivaccine lies, the anti-science ignorance, the conspiracy theory stupidity–thank all of the moral imbeciles of the web for the prolongation of the pandemic. If your loved ones die from covid-19 this year or next–you know who to blame.

This guy has it right: The consequences will be deadly if we don’t fight vaccine misinformation”

Bio Tech Orchard

I’ve got an amazing device in my yard. It extracts chemicals from the soil, then it sends them to a smaller mechanism on its upper part that separates out just the right chemicals, according to a code, combines them in a precise and predictable way, so that it creates a sort of small globe. When the globe seems the right color I extract it from the device and take a bite of it. It’s amazing–its chemicals were combined to make an “apple” taste & texture. What company makes “apple trees” anyway?

Framing the World to See Past the Frames

I sometimes want to take an empty picture frame with me on a walk. You look at a bed of fallen pine cones, some random weeds, pine needles, it looks interesting, then you raise your frame and look at it through that; mysteriously you see it more clearly, the illusion of it being framed like a work of art makes it one.

I’ve done this in remote places but won’t here, where I live–my neighbors already think I’m eccentric. (They’re not wrong, but one doesn’t like to frighten them.)

At this point, having used various methods to get the effect, I can actually look at anything–and that includes trash in the gutter–as if it were a “photo realistic” painting, even without the frame, and that makes me see it more fully…but the frame is a short cut…

The trash in the gutter *can* look like a work of art…if an artist paints it. All this also makes me think of the movie American Beauty where he shows a film (within the film) of an empty trash bag blowing about on a street; it looks sort of like an invertebrate life form. He talks about how beautiful it is, and, in the context of his film, it IS beautiful.

There are lots of ways, I find, to see more than I would normally see…sensing my body, consciously, while looking at something makes me see that something more than if I don’t do that. Compositional values and dimensionality especially.

“I didn’t make this world,” I tell myself

I tell myself: ” I didn’t make this world I just try to cope with it”–when I wonder why I have dealings with evil companies, whether I’m filling my tank or working for The Mouse; and it’s when out of SHEER COWARDICE I turn off a NPR show about children dying of diarrhea by the millions overseas, because I can’t deal with how I’m doing nothing to help except giving a little $ to Unicef or something now and then. I feel like I’m walking by an abandoned, injured child on a sidewalk and doing nothing.

pinball lizard

Looking around one day. Damn. I’m in a pinball machine. How’d I get here? This is more fucked up than that Tron situation. Whoa, what’s–BANG!–whap, clang, ding, bouncing off this, rebounding from that, down into sleep. Up again the next day, propelled into the pinball machine. The question is, can you escape from the pinball machine? Got to grow legs and hands first. Then hold on–jump up–and break the glass.

The disguised

I suppose some people are Born Assholes, just genetically or obstinately selfish, clueless; but I really think most of the irritating wince-inducing people one encounters, if you could watch a film of their day, indeed their whole life, you’d be overwhelmed with sympathy, perhaps in tears with sorrow over what they’ve gone through, what they’ve lost, what they never found out, what was done to them…

Tapeworms, Incorporated

“And a human being whose life is nurtured in an advantage which has accrued from the disadvantage of other human beings, and who prefers that this should remain as it is, is a human being by definition only, having much more in common with the bedbug, the tapeworm, the cancer, and the scavengers of the deep sea.”
― James Agee

The Speed of Time

 Older people feel that time passes faster as they age. But time isn’t going faster for them–except subjectively. This unpleasant sense of being rushed through life can be relieved; we can adjust our perceptions so that time “passes slowly” for us again.

In normal day to day states we “come to” from time to time; we come out of the free-association daydreaming state–”Gosh, it’s three o’clock already!”–and time seems to have gone by very rapidly since the last time we emerged. As we get older, or generally sink into a state of inattentiveness, it’s as if you’ve taken a movie film and removed half the individual frames, and then glued it back together. Watch it that way, and that fragmented movie  passes too fast, and too choppily, because we’re missing key perceptual moments from it.  For various reasons–perhaps associations spawned by memories, or a tendency to withdraw attention to save energy– elderly people in particular tend to be caught up in a subjective state that makes time seem to rush along like a film missing half its frames.

But if we adjust our perceptivity we no longer feel dragged along, passing too rapidly through life.  This re-tuning of our perception of time–and of life itself–can be adjusted through certain forms of meditation. Basic Zen meditation, Vipassana meditation, Gurdjieff’s self-remembering methods,  or the mindfulness  methods of Jon Kabat-Zinn, allow us to exist more fully in the now, constantly returning to what is. Through certain meditative techniques we learn to actively return to the present moment, a process that takes us out of identification with the random churning of the ordinary mind. As we make contact with this wider perception, we’ll notice that time will seem to slow in an agreeable way.  It feels miraculous when it happens, but it’s simply the result of an adjustment of attention. And it doesn’t have to be done sitting in a meditation posture–it can be done while doing housework, or taking a walk. “Walking meditation” is common in Zen and in Tibetan Buddhism.

When I am engaging in a form of mindfulness meditation one second seems to take, perhaps, four seconds to play out, or even more, but in a pleasant way. I don’t feel like “time is dragging”.  Time itself, of course, moves at whatever rate it chooses. I’m simply perceiving more of it. The apparent slowdown happens because in the meditative state I’m not caught up in free-association or daydreams. As such times I’m not on the hamster wheel of the mind; I’m not in the usual ruminative state, which sucks up so much attention. Of course, daydreaming has its uses, and the mind’s ability to free-associate is vital–but the problem is its seductiveness. If we let it take us over entirely it becomes a way to be asleep while walking around only nominally awake.

In the meditative state I take in more information; the sounds around me are heard consciously, one after another, in a consistent stream; the sensation of my body is contemplated in an unbroken continuum with  smells, sights, the feeling of a breeze or just the air on my skin.  It’s all one holistic, unified impression. In this state of active consciousness there is a globular encompassing of everything I experience. When that state is achieved it does not allow for daydreams and mindless free association because there’s no room left for any of that. The mental space usually taken up by the vagaries of free-association is occupied by a total perception of the now. Your mind is fully active but only as a receptor for the present moment. And in that state, time “slows down” because I’m perceiving, cognitively taking in, more of the productions of time.

This process is a great relief. In it–whether for thirty seconds or thirty minutes or more–we are no longer caught up in the cycle of worries, fears, and anxious planning. At such times I’m freed up, and a feeling of refreshment flows over me. Equally important, after repeated meditative efforts, the brain gradually “resets” to take in more information, in a painless, objective way. And by degrees we learn to “slow time” so that life doesn’t pass us by.

The Great Fight Now

The great fight right now in this country, in the Spring of 2021, has ramifications for every issue we hold dear; it applies to the fight against racism, it applies to the environment, it is critical to the support of science, to the work to stop the pandemic, and it applies hugely to the rights of the poor–it’s the struggle for democracy to survive the tsunami of Republican anti-democratic legislation that is sweeping the country. If we fail in that, everything else fails.

Read more at Common Dreams: The War on Democracy and Voting Rights Is Under Way: Witness the state legislatures: The Brennan Center for Justice has, as of Feb. 19, identified more than 250 bills that would roll back voting rights in 43 states.